I have a very firm grasp on reality…

I can reach out and strangle it any time! 

So – as promised yesterday – if only to myself – a reality check about my work.

Of Night And Light – the novel – still waiting to hear back from the commissioning editor.

Dancing With Elephants, The Wilful Child, Belief in Cod, One Of Our Pies Is Missing, Little Red Riding Hood and The Granny Confusion – still waiting to hear back from the animation company.

Filth – short film – at final edit stage.(London) To be taken to Le Marché du Film, Cannes, Short Film Corner.

The Other Side Of Silence – short film – original shoot date disrupted by the snow but apparently it is imminent. (Whitby)

Downtown Abby – short film – script approved and scheduling shoot with Eastenders actor attached. (London)

Caught In The Act – short film – (apparently) to be shot this year. (New York)

 Just For A Moment – a short film which has, apparently, been “on the point of completion” for over two years, (Leeds) – so I will chase it up, now I’ve remembered its existence! UPDATE: Answer to my query ‘Any progress?’ – “Sadly no. It’s still ongoing. Will be finished though. I promise.”

Creep Like A Rat – 22 page short – script approved – (apparently) to be shot within  the next eighteen months (New York)

The Colour Of Her Scream – longer short – loved by director but wants to seek proper funding in order to do it justice. (London)

The Last Assassin – a short script commissioned by a producer, in progress (London)

(The apparentlies in brackets are because I’m relying on the word of a director whom I’ve never met…)

Aside from all that – I have three feature length scripts complete, another 30 plus shorts, and Quirky Tales – a series of stories for young children, two of which have been broadcast on FunKidsLive, and Earthbaby, an audio story for babies, and Milo Saves The Circus – a long-time-coming interactive iPad story for young children.

So – quite a lot! And quite a lot needing to be done to get that stuff off my computer and out into the big wide world.

Inner Essence Designs

Reality is far more vicious than Russian roulette

 I’ll leave you to ponder on that assertion, by Nassim Nicholas Taleb, pioneering trader in complex financial derivatives. (Oh, yes, I know EXACTLY what that means…)

To add to that is T.S. Eliot’s…”Humankind cannot bear very much reality.”

But, reality checks are essential. How else can you know where you’re at and what actions need to be taken next?

It’s funny how the phrase ‘reality check’ has a slightly negative connotation (for me, at least) along the lines of “You’re living in cloud cuckoo land, Caroline, just look at what REALLY is so and prepare to be disappointed.”

With my writing, I have so much going on, but nowhere have I noted exactly what. (Aside from in my head, if you can count that.) This means that there are several projects happening and pieces of work out there waiting for approval (or rejection!) that I completely forget about for long periods of time.

Healthy? Hmmmmm…

I know it has the effect of making me flustered when someone asks me how it’s all going.

I can’t answer properly because I don’t actually know. That seems kind of irresponsible.

Today, I’m thinking about it. Tomorrow I’ll write it down.